reclaiming the dress with bad memories

We all have those items of clothing. The item itself – beautiful and loved by you but the memories attached means it stays in your wardrobe untouched. Its a shame really. Why do we let one moment in time stop us from looking and feeling our best.

This wasnt something I intended of doing. I was not ready to face my past.. but the dress I had planned to wear, along with the spare dress, was nowhere to be found. Its a common occurrence in our apartment – clothes we know we packed are impossible to find. I like to blame Albert the ghost but it could also be my imcompant tidying skills.

I wanted to look good and with none of my other clothes meeting the nightwear criteria I was left with no option. To wear the dress with bad memories that I for some reason always pack. Its a beautiful dress – don’t get me wrong.

 

It’s from Primark a year or so ago and while not being my usual choice of style I was drawn to it like a moth to a flame. It was sparkly. The colours and the pattern reminded me of some distant daydream of clothing during the Prohibition era. Whether that is historically correct or not, I cannot say. But that is what the dress reminded me of.

I’ve gained weight since I last wore this dress. I’m in a happy relationship and actually feel good about myself. It’s a really nice change and I finally feel content with who I am and how I look. A good thing because Albert the ghost also decided to hide my shapewear and push up bra. Things I would never have worn this dress without. I always felt like the dress deserved better than what my body had to offer.

“but hannah, dresses don’t have thoughts – they aren’t living things”

shhhhh. Dont argue with han logic.

I put the dress on with a normal strapless bra and no shapewear and I felt very self conscious for all of about 30 seconds.. Looking in the mirror I didnt look bad. The dress, while not my usual style and it highlighting all the things i’m self concious about .. was beautiful. As was I.

Tom and I went on to have a really good night. Lots of networking and socialising and not once was I worried about how I looked. It was kind of freeing if im honest. Oh, and the bad memories I associated with the dress? Completely replaced with the memories of what was probably my favourite night out .. ever.

han



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9 Comments

  1. August 19, 2017 / 7:20 pm

    Love this ❤️❤️❤️

    • hannah
      August 19, 2017 / 9:53 pm

      love u 😭😘

  2. August 19, 2017 / 9:24 pm

    Absolutely love it 😍😍😍

    • hannah
      August 19, 2017 / 9:53 pm

      thankyoou Lucy!!! ❣️

  3. August 20, 2017 / 2:57 pm

    Absolutely love this dress and totally agree with having memories attached to clothes I have so many like that!

  4. August 20, 2017 / 3:08 pm

    You look amazing in it! Good on you for taking back control and changing the memories the dress holds, I know to some it may sound silly to assign memories to clothes but the brain is a crafty little bugger 😂 Xx

  5. August 20, 2017 / 7:16 pm

    You look fantastic! I also had a dress with bad memories attached that I finally reclaimed recently

    • hannah
      August 20, 2017 / 9:13 pm

      yay! I’m so glad to hear that!! here’s to reclaiming dresses 🎉

  6. August 22, 2017 / 2:04 pm

    I love this! You look absolutely insane and I’m so glad you feel more comfortable now. It’s weird how we attach weird vibez to clothing isn’t it? Good on you for taking back control!

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